Friday, December 19, 2008

Hey people..yeah..long time no write..I can't believe the craziness..I have never had a year go by quite this fast!And its already Christmas time..tis the season.Well, There has been so much I've been learning since I've been at school..its been wonderful..I think one of the biggest things that I've been learning since I got here is how to have peace in storms. This has been a stormyyear for so many people..lots of weird stuff happening and a lot of discouragement..sometimes its confusing to know where you standwith everything..discerning what is a test..what is an attack..what is a blessing in disguise..When to rest when to warhow to see situations through God's eyes. These are all questions that I've had and I'm sure a lot of people think about everyday.So, I'm just going to write down some stuff that has really helped me through a lot of insecurity and anxiety.
God is always goodThere is no worry, fear, or doubt in heavenThere is never any lackThe Lord is my defenderThe Lord is my counseler.
I am royalty and I represent a kingdom that has abundance of resources. I have the legal acess through faith to pull down resources from my heavenly home from my Father in Heaven who loves me way more than I know. This concept right here can be hard to grasp fully when everything around seems to be lacking. I am personally struggling with the whole Christmas time spirit. I love giving, and it hurts me a lot that I feel like I have so much I want to give, but my personal resources seem so small. I've got family and friends everywhere whom I love dearly and want to bless a lot, but at the same time there are things that I know I need for myself..It can be a little discouraging. But, thefaith aspect for me to grasp is, I do have endless resources to give and that I can pull down because Heaven is my home..and Father God has given me that permissionHe wants to bless me, I am His princess. I may not have it in my pocket, it will manifest in one way or the other. I always have something to give and I do not live in lack. I was taking a walk with God one day and I was just talking with Him about finances and stuff like that, and he told me, " If you don't believe that'swho you are already, you will never have enough." and then He showed me a picture of me standing on top of endless treasure. Like a mountain of gold.I chose to receive what He was showing me and that my identity was in Him and that I am a person with endless resources to give and to receive. The next dayI got $1,000 to my tuition. It was amazing..A little side not here, if anybody reading this had anything to do with the $1,500 I've received in this last month or soI want you to let me know because I really want to thank you. You have sown into this dream of mine that I'm going to reap benefits from for the rest of my life.I've got $500 more to pay off..I am so excited and blessed. And right now I don't know exactly how this next season of my life is going to pan out financially,but my identity is not based in my need, it is based in His love and resources, and that is what I am going to choose to believe and trust in with all my heart and soul.And I'm praying for anybody reading this who is really discouraged by the economy affecting our nation and maybe your own personal life, that God will never leave you or forsake you, and He is making sure that all things in your life work together for your good and to the glory of Him. I love this Louise Giglio quote, "His gloryis in your satisfaction." So just rest in that. I love you all!

Saturday, October 25, 2008

Hey peoples,

I just thought I'd update and share a little of whats been going on the last couple of week..well, probably mostly this week.
This week we had the Open Heaven's Conference. Got a little bit of time off of school..which was nice. The main speakers (besides Bill of course ;) were Jon and Carol Arnott..pastors from Toronto..I got really fed from the messages they taught. Jon and Carol shared their story about the revival that hit their church in 94 and how the Lord was showing them the importance of ongoing anointing. I love their heart...they were so humble and real. Before that time of refreshing they were going through a season of expectancy...They were just really hungry for revival..and during one of their services, Carol had this vision..Her first vision...and she was totally out of it for about 45 min..laying on her back and moving her arms and legs like she was running in her vision. This was new for her church...probably a little embarrasing to see the pastor's wife on the floor, her arms and legs going all over the place..But Jon just said, "leave her alone...she's not making this up..she's really experiencing something." It was interesting to hear that because even though Jon had no intention of disturbing her, the Lord told him that if he had interrupted that vision, their revival only lasted a couple of weeks..like some do...I don't know, I just thought that was neat. Her vision was really meaningful for her personally, but the part that was meant for the church was that He was coming soon...And Jon went on to read us the passage about the 10 virgins and the difference between them. 5 of them had extra oil and 5 of them ran out by the time the Bridegroom came. This related to the most important thing we can focus on as Christians is being filled to overflow with the Holy Spirit..no matter what it looks like...being so desperate for His presence. In the natural, we get full as we eat..in the spiritual, we get hungrier the more we taste. The other important part of what God said to Jon was the need to keep the message of the coming king alive. So many people get burnt out with that message...but it is so important to keep that alive in our hearts..He is coming.
There were other things he said that were very meaningful...like about the wisdom of God and how He interweaves that in His Word...One of the ways He does that is the hidden mysteries of prophetic acts in stories...One that I find really interesting is the story of how Moses struck the rock twice. When you look at it you can't help but feeling bad for Moses..I mean, I would have been frustrated too...all he did was strike the rock twice and all the sudden he's out of the promise land..You wonder what the significance of his act of disobedience was that made the Lord so upset...You may think this is over the top..but its something to think about...The rock represents Jesus (Jesus Christ, rock of ages..rock of our salvation..etc.), Moses' rod represented the cross..When he struck the rock twice, it represented puting Jesus back on the cross..(there is a scripture that talks about that..can't remember the reference.)..Moses, of course, represents the law...God never meant the law to be what we live by...Jesus paid the price once...and now, all we have to do is "speak to the rock." Ask..
Other stories..but the Bible is full of stories about prophetic acts and their significance..Its the Wisdom of God to hide a matter, and the glory of kings to search it out..

So, anyway..thats just some stuff I gleaned..It sounded more relevant when Jon was sharing it then it does in my writing..but oh well :) It meant something to me.

Its a crazy week coming up with the elections and stuff..Make sure you vote yes on Prop 4 and Prop 8..
I want to ask you guys to keep praying for financial provision for me ( for everyone as far as that goes)..I'm going to try and get a job with homecare this week. Pray that it works out. I still need to pay my tuition off and I have a mission trip coming up this next year. I don't know exactly where I'm going yet..I find out on the 9th of November..but I need financial provision for that as well. The mission trip is mandatory for graduation. So, if you could just keep that in your prayers I would be so grateful. Prayers are soo powerful in the kingdom of God..Its His children pulling on heaven and inviting Him to move on behalf of who and what we are praying for. So be encouraged..your prayers are effective..I received $200 in two days right before my rent was due..it was awesome..I know that my God hears.
Love you guys!

Friday, October 10, 2008

Hey my fam...
Just thought while I had time to update. Life is pleasantly busy as of right now..Learning a lot with being here..its good. I think one of the biggest things that I am continually learning here is LOVE...I know it sounds sooo revolutionary..but ya know, it is :)

I don't think I'll ever stop learning about it. It keeps changing me day to day.
It is so important to know more and more how much God loves us...To know every day how crazy He is about you. It is soo good to know how much God loves people you're around every day..It's just so good to know that He loves...it just is. So, if you are reading this right now...you need to know afresh how much God is intensly in love with you...Just receive it. He loves you and it does not matter at all how much you think you deserve it...just receive it and rest in it. His love restores the standard. Kris said, "Its amazing what people will do for the one they love." Refering to people who do crazy things for God that make you wonder if you're even a christian..:) Without love, things look like sacrifice. With love, its not..it just flows from you.
You can not earn His love. You cannot change yourself on your own...His love changes you. All He is asking you to do is to surrendur.. So yeah, feel free to receive that.
Yesterday, Mark Brooks ( 1st year pastor) taught on joy. And I just want to share this one tidbit with you. It says in the Bible that the Lord laughs at the plans of man...So you know what we're supposed to do? Laugh! Look up and live from God's perspective..Laugh! I'm not saying this in the context of not having seasons of mourning..but more of when you are feeling burdened and things just keep looking impossible...Just take a break and laugh. The joy of the Lord is your strength..It gives you strength and it is a reminder to the enemy that he lost. He cannot hold you down.
And a last note..I just want to say Thank you for your prayers and your generous money giving. It has been so awesome to see the Lord's hand over it. He takes your prayers for me and pours them out. Your guy's prayers have kept and will continue to keep me encouraged and strengthened. You're amazing and I love you all!

Friday, September 26, 2008

my life

Lol..I've been doing a good job at updating my posts haven't I ? :)
Well...I had this super deep sermon gleaning post I was going to write..I still might write it. It had a lot to do with building legacy instead of ministry...and being a father. Barnabas took a hold of Paul...He trusted and invested in him when nobody else trusted him. Barnabas wasn't remembered for doing a lot..but Paul was. Kingdom thinking goes beyond your life..it goes into the next generations. The whole thing was really inspiring and way more deep..but that was what it was in a nut shell.
I am doing good...growing in many many ways. I'm growing in more and more realization of who I am and who He is. Its real..definitely.
Write me and let me know whats going on at home...I would love to hear :)

Thursday, September 11, 2008

So yeah, I wanna be a Barnabas (Son of encouragement) Kris Vollaton gave one of the most emotional and inspiring I have ever heard in my

Thursday, September 4, 2008

One of many blogs to come!

Wednesday, September 3, 2008

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well...this is my first blog..more on the way ;)